To: Wicky

Hi Wicky~Happy Birthday~

很早的生日快乐，有点早的生日礼物，但不拿就没机会了。二十一岁了，真的好快，认识有七、八年了吧。去了MMU，生活变得多姿多彩，认识的人也多了。还在想着她吗？像以前。不过，是与否，都与我无关了。认识了那么多年，知道你那么多事，也不晓得是好是坏。以前，听过你对她做的事，很难想象，你会做出这种事，只能说，你入了魔。What's up with you? Making yourself sad and hurting yourself. Don't endure the pain inside your heart.

有很多话想说，却不知从何说起。最让我惊讶的是，就是从阿惠那里得知，你们竟然以为我喜欢佳伟，真的是很可笑。认识你的时间，有一半，是在单恋中度过。看到这，吓了一大跳吧？！哈哈…但这不是玩笑，我是很认真地在写，很认真。我想，我很成功，从头到尾，只有阿惠晓得。我也不懂为什么会告诉她，或许是，就算她知道了，也不会一直问我，让我很放心。

从头到尾都没有其他人，我只喜欢你，从以前到现在。因为我从来都不让你知道，因为我是女生，因为我很骄傲，因为我以为你会对我有感觉，更因为——后来知道——你喜欢她。我以为总有一天，你会发现自己爱上不该爱的人，自己是错的，但现在，我才明白，一直以来错的都是我，错得离谱。为什么会那么喜欢她？就算她拒绝了你、就算她说你们不可能、就算她有了男朋友、就算她有了男朋友还是一直给你希望、就算……你还是喜欢她。我不知道为什么你那么喜欢她，就像我不知道，自己为什么那么喜欢你。

I don't have the heart to let you go. I can't lose you.其实很想一直呆在你身边，不管是什么身份，但是好像有点小难了。你和我现在是朋友，还能作朋友或许是最好的结果。但
以后呢？很难了吧…其实我一直以为，我们能一直做朋友，可是我很贪心，不像只做朋友。又其实，我们很像，我想，我知道你的答案，到了这里，已经不能做朋友了。这封信，存在档案夹里有一段时间了，一直还在犹豫，该不该寄出这封信，现在，终于做了决定。

Yeo always said,"Does he know" and I,"Don't think so"
You shouldn't made me fall in love with you.
I don't have the heart to tell you. Cause I know you love her. That time, my heart was hurting. I couldn't bring myself to utter anything.
I told you I love you, I wonder about the expression that you gave me.
All insignificant and unimportant things I still care about you.
Everything doesn't mean anything to you, except her.
Leading a life with broken heart, I'm worried about you.
I still failed no matter how hard i try to pretend.
Initially I didn't fall in love with you. But, you slowly and surely walked into my heart. Sometimes, I'd stared at you when I'm beside you.
But there's nothing I can do for you. I pretend to be calm. I could only look at you absent-mindedly. I could feel that another girl has captured your heart.
I know how deep is your love to her. I can't express my feelings to you that's why.
I'm dreaming of this love. If you're know, I hate you for pretending not to know. If you're know, you shouldn't give me any hope.
You driving me nuts. Seriously hurt.
I wish to give up, everytime. You're pushing me away because you can't love me. But I had to leave you even though I love you.
I sat stumped and started thinking.
I don't want to burden you. I could only stand sadly by your side.
Falling in love with someone whom shouldn't love, I must shoulder all the misery myself.
As long as I'm strong, everyone will be happy.
I'm thankful to have met you even though you don't love me.
You might feel better if you didn't know this.
My heart is useless because i love you too much.
I' such a silly fool. Because when a person whom he loves is standing right in front of him, he'll be blind and deaf to everything. He'll only think about that person. It's the same with you. You doesn't even see my existence.
I really hate myself. I don't want to be sad by your side anymore.
I wish to forget everything and erase all memories of you.
Even though you love someone, still pretend that it's not love.
What should I do?? I still smile even though my heart is bleeding.
Facing it with a smile, because i choose to forget.
It'll be easy if i were practise. My heart hurts so much, making me feel so pathetic.
The times we shared have became memories which were easily forgotten.
My heart still hurts even though I'm keeping quiet.
But, I'll quietly stand here, stand at the original place. Sometimes restless, sometimes tired, sometimes sad, please remember you have my support always.
Are you leading a good life without me??
I really hope you could be like this.
I could still survive after letting you go. Because love hurts so much, weigh me down so much.
It was the last time. That's what i told you.
I'll forget you tommorow. I think i really miss you when I can't see you.
我坚持的，都值得坚持吗?我喜欢和，会是真的吗？如果我敢追求，就敢拥有吗？或许吧。或许我永远都不会拥有你，或许我太天真了。
有人说：世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死，而是我就站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你。
It's not important now. Don't think about the past anymore.
Don't remember or take it to heart too. My hopes are dashed. I'm sorry for making you torn between. My heart was cold now. I don't know about you to her, but I wish my love has ended.
Everthing has ended. Forget everything.
These are words that ended everything.
不管是喜剧还是悲剧，总该有个结局。
我知道，我总会遇见一个人，陪我过没有你的人生。
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心，我们要各自忘记。
爱上了同一个遗憾，恍然明白，那时候，为何明白你的感受。
是我，告诉她，不喜欢的话就不要给任何的希望，希望越大，失望就越大，没有希望，也许能从绝望里复活。我那么恶劣，你说得对，我的心机很深，深不可测。我以为读过心理学的自己什么都懂，到头来，自己却是最恶劣的失败者。
我想，你不想再见到我了吧。所以，才想离开这。
我们，不要再见面了。以后，都不要了。
不能学会的伤害，我们要学会释怀。
知道你没那么介怀，就安心多了。
以后，喝茶就靠你了，记得发挥你的搞笑天分。
I, who doesn't stand a chance will look more pathetic.
I love you so much, how can i face you in future??
This is the last time.
这封信，就当作我们之间的秘密，好吗？希望你说好。=）
At least, I could still maintain my dignity.

收藏在眼眸 常徘徊在左右 爱猜到没有
愉快玩笑后 能全然退后 你开心就够
这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到后 或会走
这种恋爱太罕有 不须真正拥有
成全 衷心祝福然后就放手
放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经已经足够
遥远是宇宙 静静在背后 去看守就够
这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动 挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有 不须真正拥有
成全 多不舍得仍然是 放手
放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经已经足够
放手 我的牵挂 找不到尽头
放手 期望你幸福什么都有
也许 爱很深厚 然而我早看得透
放手 至可拥有